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: I’m obsessed

“If your heart is in a dream, no request is too extreme, when you wish upon a star, as dreamers do.”
-Walt Disney

That was the opening quote I used in an essay I wrote for a class when I was 14 or 15 about what I wanted my career to be like 10 years from then. Seven years later, I find it funny that I used that particular quote- dreamers? Wishing upon a star? It should have been a more grounded quote by Walt Disney, perhaps “All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them.”

I found that essay sitting lonely in a file somewhere in my harddisk while looking for something unrelated earlier today. It’s amusing to read something I wrote so long ago, especially as I was in a completely different mindset.

No. I was in a completely different life. Does it sound like the same person?

This is my tribute to a Disney dream that is now reality. Disney has taught me something no tuition and no friend could teach; to set sights to infinity and beyond. Disney is by and large known for “Making the Magic”, and it is definitely the “dreamer who does”. Whether its dreams are hidden in the heart of a pretty sapphire-clad belle that slumbers until her prince comes or a roller coaster that is ignited to life by the shrieks of those who are soaring through the sky inside it, no one can project a masterpiece of love and dreams so stunningly.

As a child, my parents surrounded my life with the magic of Disney; I went to sleep by gazing at the murals of Snow White on my bedroom walls, I dressed up as Pocahontas to all the costume parties I went to, and I hungrily devoured every word of Disney Weekly on Thursdays. In fact, when I look back at my childhood, I realize that the best phrase to describe it would be “blurb-of-colors”. So now, as a young adult, my fantasies are tainted with falling down the rabbit hole to wind up in The Neverland or putting on the fairy-tale slippers to transform into a princess. Consequently, these tainted fantasies and a background full of animation and color lead my mind to renovate everything lackluster I see into a “how-to-make-it-more-pretty” project. After years of feathering doorknobs with fuchsia fluff and concealing paint-stained desktops with tie-dyed pillowcases, I set a life-long goal for myself. This life-long goal, also known as “beautifying”, is really nothing more than pixie-dust sprinkled across my world.

I have so far succeeded in giving small scenes in the play that is my life the ability to let my spirits ascend. The scene that is my bedroom, for example, is my candy-land. Being my creation from corner to corner, and filled with handmade uniqueness and simple creations dressed-up, I feel inspired to imagine when I’m in it.

I believe that every human deserves to have such a sanctuary to fade into, but I also believe that not everyone will enjoy inventing love with colors and creativity.
For this reason, I aspire to establish a career that will facilitate me in helping others create such a sanctuary. I want to cultivate the ability to tap into people’s deep-seated desires and to fuse age-old fairytales with brand-new originalities, while also developing my perception of the dissimilar psychological personalities of individuals. I yearn for the ability to transform a fantasy into a multihued, exciting world that individuals can move through cheerfully, touch, and enjoy. I want my hands to have the ability to create a life-sized child’s dollhouse- safe, bright, and swarming with innocent temptation. I want to manage to make poverty seem, well, charming. I want to dream, and I want my career to be the platform of my dreams.

Such fabulous work is the daily business of Imagineers, Graphic Designers, Architects along with Interior Designers, and I hope to be received into one of these professions. I know that I would love to be a part of any of these careers, giving up my heart and soul to fill others lives with beauty. I’m in love with doing such things. Actually, I’m not only in love; I’m obsessed.

Ten years is an eternity away, yet it’s also too close. Human life is sinking with prosaic ebony’s and insipid whites. It is over-involved with everyday realism and practicality to worry about simple things such as colors that harmonize and the minute details that may ember up a classroom that fails to motivate. I know that I will not be able to achieve my lifetime goal like I want it to be achieved it in such a short period, but I do desire to have access to miniature projects in vicinities that need to be sugarcoated. I also hope to accomplish innovation. I aspire to frolic with creativity. I wish that what has filled my life with inspiration and magic will spread to engulf the lives of others.

But most of all, I want to be a part of what started by obsession; I want to work for Disney.

Man, I guess I’ve been so mphalsapheh my entire life.


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  1. beautiful.

    Disney is one of the greatest thing the 20th century had offered. I am still obsesive about Mr. Donald Fauntleroy Duck

  2. OK, so now all this that is you, is you at 21?? And you wrote that incredible, vibrant essay at 14?

    Answer this:

    What the hell were you like at 6???? Composing symphonies? And why do you not have a PhD yet???

    You, ma dahhhhling, are in a league of your own! I am so impressed I’m gonna start bowing any second. You gotta understand, what you did with the English language at 14 is what I’m still trying to do. That’s a great essay. Hope you got an A. Please tell me you got an A. Now I wanna work for disney. You have no idea how much I adore the genie in Aladdin.

  3. husams

    Man msh ma3gooleh enti!! You wrote this at age 14! And still they are talking about a fair creator!!…. man are you sure all the words you wrote, got covered in my little Webster?! Roba you don’t need Disney more than they need you, I would tell you to send them this essay, and the job will be yours, even you wont need to mention the age you wrote this essay at, hmm 14, 21, 30, 60 will be juuuust fine. Hmm but no, ignore me, still not ready to lose your blog for some new red shoes cartoons character….. gal mfalsapheh gal, ay matat l phalsafeh men ba3Dk

  4. hareega

    i wish i had borrowed you for my english language exam, the only thing i could write about was a faisali-wehdat game.

  5. This has been said in the previous comments, but I have to say this:

    FOURTEEN?! Are you serious? Akeed la2! No way! No friggin way!

    “Ten years is an eternity away, yet it’s also too close. Human life is sinking with prosaic ebony’s and insipid whites. It is over-involved with everyday realism and practicality to worry about simple things such as colors that harmonize and the minute details that may ember up a classroom that fails to motivate.”

    You wrote that AT FOURTEEN?! I didn’t even know what white was at fourteen (bit of an exaggeration)!


  6. “I set a life-long goal for myself. This life-long goal, also known as ‘beautifying’…”

    Roba, habibti, you are well on your way to your goal. And frankly, I think the path you’ve chosen will have even more influence on the world than you would have working for (the sadly, overly-corporate minded) Disney Company.

    Kinzi mentioned you were working on the idea of a mural JP project in E. Amman. Any update on that? Count me in, if so.

  7. Anonymous

    mesh 3aref hal benet sho ga3deh betsawwi hon bel mamlakeh…ya ekhwan dabroolha visa 3a amerca..

  8. Anonymous

    I am really wondering..who could marry this girl? is there any kind of men who are at least good enough to cope with her creativity, intelligence & charm? fee haik?

    i’ma guy!

  9. Omario

    Dear Roba!

    I am sure you have received many compliments & testimonials from different kind of people all the way long, but the only thing that i really cant understand, is that..what a person like you is doing here, studying something in a Jordanian university.. i would be very very very proud, being at home, watching TV, argueing with a friend about what to do at night, or what movie to watch this weekend, or probably complaining about my manager who didnt give my 5 jds raise, or fighting with my mom coz i didnt fix el boilAr, or with my dad coz i didnt change zait el seyyara, and all of sudden, while switching Channels, i see you there sitting right next to Oprah Winfrey telling the whole world, the story of the Arabic Jordanian girl who made it to worldwide screens & joined the most successful organizations in the world.

    Buena suerte

  10. Roba,

    You should come to Florida.
    I grew up two hours drive from Disney World (which these days has gotten so large it could constitute its own city-state). Disney Co is frequently looking for new talent & Orlando is a fun town for a young person with energy and talent–especially, I would imagine, a young Arab from a part of the world which represents an impressive potential market.

    Or you could go to work for Rubicon, the Pixar-inspired Jordanian animation company.
    (See linked article.)

  11. mohammed

    Dear Roba,
    Most of us grew up watching those movies, but i think they do effect the personality from different aspects.
    you had a caring parents who allowed you to unleash your imagination and express it in ways that made you believe in dreams and fairy tails and in your self…small things matter and effect your talents and personality even the custom parties did have a share of your creativity, but the question that remains is:
    what if you grew up with creative imagination and very realistic parents?

    I really enjoy your way of living so keep it and here is an advice,keep ur life as it is till 25. dont make major changes till 25, that includes moving places or marriege or getting engaged. cause people are too vulnerable emotionally till that age.if you want to stay the lovely person you are do that.

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